Just some 6am thoughts. Woke up at 5:30 with a nosebleed. I haven’t had one of those since high school. But this pretty much sums up how life has been going recently ;).
It’s been a hard past week. A surprise car issue that will claim our lone vehicle any day now, my big toenail got completely ripped out in a freak accident while in Houston last week (seriously. It was as horrific as it sounds.), Arden is cutting at least two molars at once which I can only imagine is NOT pleasant in the least bit. And it is definitely affecting his mood, eating and sleeping habits. And adding pregnancy to all this has complicated these issues. It’s one of those seasons where one thing after another happens (small things, big things, things that wouldn’t necessarily be a big deal in an isolated situation but it adds to the frustration when combined) and you start to realize maybe you should stop and listen. Listen to God. I’m preaching to myself what I have told a few others before. It’s always more about who God wants to be for you than your current situation. Ask God what part of his character he wants to show you. Maybe I should do this.
To quote one of my favorite reads I the year, Surprised By Motherhood by Lisa-Jo Baker, “The only way through is through.” There’s no magic formula to emerge out of seasons like these. It could be anything: the first few weeks after having a baby when you don’t know which way is up, trying to just graduate college but every possible roadblock is in the way, a hard season in marriage, financial trouble, a miscarriage. It will manifest itself in various ways, but the question I am faced with is how will I respond. Complaining? An excuse to pamper myself a bit because I “deserve” it? Powering through while letting my heart grow cold? Praying it ends? I must admit I have done every single one of these, but I know enough now to know that is not the proper response. I need to get my eyes off myself and onto my Creator. Stop complaining and start praying for others in hard situations. Search and ask what part of His character He is wanting to reveal to me.
And, to paraphrase from Philippians 4, to be content in whatever situation I am in. Whether abundance or need. I can do all things through Christ. Stay thankful. Rejoice always. Keep my eyes fixed on eternity.
In other news, I’ve been pinching my nose shut for nearly thirty minutes now and I’m not sure the bleeding has stopped. I’m going to now focus my energy on getting to a place where I can get a little more sleep before the Arden love wakes up. Love you all.