Well, a lot has happened since I last posted! The twinnies are HERE, now 11 days old. And they are lovely.
There is so much I want to write about regarding the twins: the story of why they came when they did, the MANY blessings and evidence of God’s hand through it all, our tiny NICU journey that lasted a week but felt like an eternity, and these first tender and tiring days with them at home.
I want to write about the tender moments in my bed at the hospital when everything was uncertain; how just minutes before nurses and my doctor came rushing in to prep me for the c section I read Psalm 121, and how throughout the overwhelming process I had it stuck in my head like a mantra: he who watches you will neither slumber nor sleep…the Lord is your keeper, the shade at your right hand, He will keep your life…
I want to write about how this whole experience more than anything in my life has made me feel so many intense emotions. Shock, excitement, fear, loneliness, contentment, thankfulness, love, overwhelm, peace. How it’s been the most physically demanding thing I’ve ever gone through, and possibly ever will.
But for now, I’ll just say this: I am so thankful that the Lord gave us these gifts. The whole thing is still a huge mystery to me. I have felt completely unqualified and unprepared from the moment we found out there were two babies. The weeks and months to come will hold many frustrations, sleepless nights and tears (because, motherhood). But for now, I will enjoy the quiet, their peaceful faces as they sleep, the rise and fall of their little bodies as they lay on my chest, the joy of getting to hold both at once, and I’ll wonder.
Praise God from Whom all blessings flow…